Give Me Novacaine

Take away the sensation inside

Bitter sweet migraine in my head

Its like a throbbing tooth ache of the mind

I can't take this feeling anymore

Drain the pressure from the swelling,

The sensations overwhelming,

Give me a long kiss goodnight and everything will be alright

Tell me that I won't feel a thing

So give me Novacaine

Out of body and out of mind

Kiss the demons out of my dreams

I get the funny feeling, that's alright

Jimmy says it's better than here,

I'll tell you why

Drain the pressure from the swelling,

The sensations overwhelming,

Give me a long kiss goodnight and everything will be alright,

Tell me that I won't feel a thing,

So give me Novacaine

Oh Novacaine

Drain the pressure from the swelling,

The sensations overwhelming

Give me a long kiss goodnight and everything will be alright,

Tell me Jimmy I won't feel a thing,

So give me Novacaine  

'I need to get some fresh air' Billie Joe thought to himself heading for the door. He turned the doorknob slightly.
"Baby, where are you going?" Adrienne asked looking over at him.
Billie winced. Adrienne always needed to know what he was up to.
"I'm going for a walk, I'll bring my cell phone in case you need to call me."
"Alright." Adrienne said sitting on the couch watching the news as she did everyday. She needed to be on top of things. It'll be a good source of gossip for when she's talking to her friends. Billie looked over at her and smiled at the thought of her beauty and left.

It was a beautiful spring day in California. The wind was swaying to and fro though the leaves of the trees. Good thing it was windy! It provided an air conditioning on hot days like today. Billie smiled at the sight and put on his shades. The smell of pine was everywhere. The flowers were blooming. This was why Billie has always said that spring was the best season of the year.

Billie walked for a few minutes and stopped every once in awhile to look around. He looked to the right and saw a little girl and what appeared to be her mother on the sidewalk. Their clothes were covered in dirt and their hair was matted. The little girl was holding a sign that said, "Desperate, will work for money". Billie frowned and walked over to them handing them cash. The little girl looked up at him and smiled with gratitude. Billie smiled back. He didn't care whether or not they were really poor or just panhandling. he just wanted to do the right thing.  

He walked for a little while until he reached a park. he smiled at the kids playing but then frowned when he saw two young boys fighting. He shook his head and sat down on a nearby bench. Completely bored he took out his cell to talk to Mike over IM.
He talked to him for a while when he felt something tug on his pant leg. He looked down. There stood a little girl, possibly 5-years-old.She had big brown eyes and light brown hair. She had her hair up in a pink hair tie and had a white hair clip on the side. She wore a flowery dress and held a white balloon that said, "National Night Out."



She smiled up at him. "Hi Billie Joe!"
Billie smiled back, flattered by the fact that a little girl her age knew who he was! "Hey, what's your name?" He asked curiously.
"I'm Audrey!" She said smiling. He smiled and slightly looked up to see a women, probably in her mid-twenties. He guessed it was her mother. She smiled down at him and he smiled back.
"Oh, this is my mommy, Autumn. I don't have a daddy anymore cause he left us. My mommy said that he's a down right selfish bastard and he'll never amount to anything."
Her mother put her hand over Audrey's mouth and smiled innocently at Billie. He laughed.
"Sorry." Her mother said laughing.
"That's alright,"Billie said. "I remember when my boys were about her age, they started to remember and copy everything."
Autumn laughed. "Yeah, you have to be careful of what you say around them."
Billie nodded. "Yeah."
"Billie, can I have your autograph?" Audrey asked holding out a permanent marker.
"Audrey, what's he gonna sign on?" Her mother said laughing.
"Ummmm....here." She said holding out her balloon. "You can sign my balloon!"
Billie and Autumn laughed. "Okay." He said writing his name. "There."
"Thank you!" Audrey said smiling.
"Well, we better get going Audrey, you have a doctor's appointment." Autumn said to her daughter.
"Oh, okay." Audrey said gloomily. "Are you gonna come back here Billie?"
Billie smiled. "Yeah, sure, why not."
Audrey grinned and gave him a huge hug.
"Wow!" Billie said smiling cause of the impact the little girl's hug was.
"Bye, See you later Billie!" Audrey shouted waving.
"Bye." Billie said waving back. He had a feeling that he was about to take more walks from now on.

I know it was a little short, but it'll get longer!  ;)[/couleur]  

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A week has past since he met Audrey and on everyone of those days he'd gone to the park she wasn't there. Billie felt a little weird to be rejected by a five-year-old, but, you know, whatever. Billie stared at the blank TV screen gloomily, lying down on the couch. It was just one of those fucked up days where all you wanted to do is sleep. Tre was in New York visiting his daughter Ramona and Mike was always busy, leaving Billie there to rott. And they find it amusing.

"Uh dad," Eleven-year-old Joey said. "I suggest that you turn the TV on if you want to watch it."
Billie didn't say anything, he was so fucking bored!
"Dad?" Joey asked waving his hand over Billie's face like he was hypnotised.
Billie finally came back into his sences and looked at his son. "What?"
Joey rolled his eyes. "Nothing."
"Wait...son." Billie said sitting up. "Go get mom and your brother, we're going to the park."
Joey gave him a weird look that said, "What? The park? We're too old for that!" but he did what he was told.

Billie, Adrienne, Joey, and Jakob all got ready to go and left.
The weather was about the same as it was a week ago. The wind was blowing through the leaves of the trees, the smell of pine was everywhere...well you know what I posted last time. They kept walking and Billie looked to the right, not seeing that little girl and her mother on the sidewalk. He smiled at himself.  When they finally reached the park Billie caught sigt someone familiar, it was Audrey. Billie smiled and walked over to her.
"Hey Audrey." Billie said sitting on the bench she was on.
"Oh, hi Billie!" She replied smiling. Billie noticed something different about her. She had lines underneath her eyes and her hair was cut and matted. He shrugged it off, she probably just woke up from a nap or something.
"I see you cut your hair." He said smiing.
Audrey frowned and looked down. "Yeah, I miss my long hair already." She smiled slightly.
"Sorry, I wasn't here for awhile, I was at the doctor's."
"Do you mind if I ask why?" Billie asked frowning.
"It's complicated."
"Oh." Billie said. There was something about her that was different than other little kids he'd see. She was more...mature for her age. He couldn't help but sense something was bothering her, but he decided not to ask, so he changed the subject.
"So what is your favorite part about visiting the park?" He asked smiling.
Audrey looked at the other kids playing gloomly. "I just like watching other kids play." She looked at him then back at the park. "Is that Jakob and Joey over there?"
"Yeah, how did you know?"
"Well, for 1 they look a lot like you and for 2, I know cause I'm a huge fan of your's." She said smiling up at him.
"Oh yeah," Billie said grinning. "And why am I so special?"
"Cause, I always thought you were the coolest person ever, and your a good father." She looked down. He knew who she was thinking about, her father. Audrey broke down into a couple of coughs.
"You alright?" Billie asked.
"Uh, yeah I'm fine." Audrey said smiling. "Just a little cough."

"Dad........wake up!" Joey said poking his father on the back.
"Yeah, WAKE UP!" Jakob shouted. "THERE'S SOMEONE HERE TO SEE YOU!"
"Not so loud Jakob!" Joey said.
"Well we have to wake him up!"
"Oh yeah." Joey realized. "Dad!"
They waited for a minute then looked at each other grinning.
"Are you thinking what I'm thinking?" Joey asked smiling.
Jakob nodded. "Mmmhmm."
They both said 1,2,3 and started to jump on their Dad's bed.
"WHOO!!!!!!!" Joey. cried.
They both started laughing.
"Guys!" Billie cried. "Ugh!"
"Wake up!" Jakob cried. "Wake up wake up wake up wake up WAKE UP!"
Adrienne peeked her head in the room to see what was going on and laughed.
"Fine!" Billie cried sitting up. Billie yawned and rubbed his eyes. Then scratched his head.
Adrienne smiled. "Hun, that little girl's here to see you. I think she said her name is Audrey."
"Huh?" Billie asked puzzled. How did she know where he lived? Billie got up and walked downstairs to see Audrey sitting on the couch watching something. She looked over at him and smiled. "Hiya Billie!"
Billie still was a little tired but he smiled. "Hey." He walked over to the couch and set next to her. He looked at the TV. She was watching something about...leukemia? Audrey noticed his puzzled face and answered, "I like to learn new things, *cough*."
"Oh....well do you have to watch this?" Billie asked looking at her.
Audrey nodded. "Yeah."
Billie felt like his heart stopped. Did Audrey have leukemia? Billie thought about this for awhile but then shrugged it off.
"What's wrong Billie?"
"N-nothing wrong." He answered smiling. He looked at her necklace. "What's that?"
Audrey looked down and smiled, then picked it up. It was a sliver cross with white diamonds.

"This is really special," She said. "This necklace has been handed down to all Lawndale's."
"Oh yeah...is that your last name?" Billie asked.
"Yeah."
"...Does your mother know you're here?"
Audrey nodded.
Billie smiled. "I'll be right back." He said getting up.
"Where're you going?" Audrey asked yawning.
Billie smiled and pointed to the bathroom.
Audrey smiled slightly. "Oh."

"Audrey, you hungry?" Billie asked after he was done in the restroom.
No answer.
"Audrey?" Billie repeated.
Still no answer.
Billie looked into the leaving room seeing Audrey on the floor unconscious.
"Audrey!" Billie cried running up to her. He touched her burning forehead and her cold hand.
"Hun, what's wrong?" Adrienne asked walking down the stairs.
"Adrienne, call the ambulance!"
"What!" She cried not believing what she heard.
"Just do it!"

***

Billie, Adrienne, Joey, Jakob, and Audrey's mother were sitting in the hospital, with Audrey in bed coughing. Billie looked at her and frowned, then looked at her Autumn.
"I'm sorry." Billie said looking at her.
"No...it's not your fault...I should have told you." Autumn.
"Told me what?" Billie asked confused.
"She has leukemia."

Billie's heart sank. He didn't know why he felt this sad. He hasn't known her that long. Maybe it was because Audrey reminded him of himself when he was young? Maybe because he thought of her as the daughter he's never had? Or maybe it was just because she was so young. He understood now why she didn't want to play with the other kids at the park. She knew she wouldn't grow old, get into college, have friends, dreams. He understood now why she was so mature for her age. But she managed to be happy....well when he was around. She was trying to be strong.
Billie wanted to cry, but he held them back.
Audrey looked over at him and smiled. Billie smiled back. He didn't know why she liked him so much. It was like a special bond that only lasted for about two weeks.  

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Billie came to visit Audrey everyday, and everyday she got worse. Billie dreaded going to that hospital, but he knew that she needed him to be there. He sat in a chair right next to Audrey holding her cold, clammy hands. Audrey's face was pale, she had lines underneath her eyes from lack of sleep, her eyes were lined with red and her hair was matted. Her breathing was very heavy and her voice was wispy. And yet every time he'd see her she felt happy.
"Need anything?" Billie asked looking at her.
Audrey shook her head no.
"Alright."
"You know-Billie--you've been more--of a father to--me than my--real dad, and i've only--known you for--a couple of weeks!" Audrey forced herself to laugh.
Billie felt a tear roll down his cheek. "I have?"
Audrey nodded.
"And I--want you to--have this." Audrey said taking off her sliver cross necklace and handing it over to him.
"What? No....I can't..." Billie said almost speechless.
"Yes..you can. Wheather you like it--or not--your family-to me."
Billie smiled slightly and took it putting it around his neck. "Thanks."
Audrey smiled. "I don't need it--anyways. I'm dieng quick."
"Not if I can help it." Billie said getting up and walking to the door.
"Where you goin'?"
"I'm asking the doctors for a cure." Billie said.
"Wait....don't--you can't---it's too late now---there's not enough--white blood cells--in my body--to fight it."
Billie stopped and went to sit back down in the chair feeling defeated. He began to cry, letting it all out.
                                           
  Five months have past. Audrey was gone for that long already. Billie couldn't believe it. Four months ago Adrienne found out she was pregnant. And Billie and her were anxious to find out what it was. Billie stared at the screen looking at the little baby.
"Do you know what it is?" Billie asked the nurse.
The nurse nodded. "It's a girl."
Adrienne and Billie looked at one another and smiled.
"What should we name her?" Adrienne asked looking down at her stomach.
Billie grinned and replied, "Audrey."  
                                                              ***
Billie sat in the grass, acostic guitar in his hands. He looked down at the grave that read, "Audrey Marie Lawndale" and smiled. The sliver cross hung around his neck. Billie looked down at his guitar, going into the first chord and sang:

Take away the sensation inside
Bittersweet migraine in my head
It's like a throbbing toothache of the mind
I can't take this feeling anymore.

Drain the pressure from the swelling
The sensations overwhelming
Give me a long kiss good night and everything will be alright
tell me that I won't feel a thing
So give me Novacaine

Out of body and out of mind
Kiss the demons out of my dreams
I get the funny feeling that's alright
Jimmy says it's better than here
I'll tell you what

Drain the Pressure from the swelling
the sensations overwhelming
give me a long kiss goodnight and everything will be alright
tell me that i won't feel a thing
so give me novacaine

Oh novacaine

Drain the pressure from the swelling
the sensations overwhelming
give me a long kiss goodnight and everything will be alright
tell me Jimmy i won't feel a thing
So give me novacaine

FINISHED

I know I know! that was short right??? LOL

oh.....my....god....i...have...tears...in...my...eyes...omg....i'm...gonna...cry...that...is...my...fav...fanfic....in...the...whole...world....so....touching....omg...i'm....crying....so....beautiful......*claps*

LOL!!!!!!!! THANKS SARAH!!!!!!!!!!   hehe!

I don't have time to read it all now, but it looks really good.  I can't wait to start reading!  

*wipes tear*

I read it!  I cried!  It was so sad.  I'm happy you wrote a sequal!

Yeah, LOL

I don't have time now, but this weeked I'm gonna read it.  I'm pumped!

LOL thanks guys!!!!!!!!! There's gonna be a number 3 but it's gonna stop there! HEHE

OMG!  I can't wait!  I still have to read the rest of 2!  lol

LOL

haha
I'M DIEING FOR A NUMBER 3

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After Dearly Beloved my friend!