*BASED ON THE SONG STUART AND THE AVE*

Standing on the corner of
Stuart and the Avenue

Why am I here? Why did I leave so many mistakes in my path? Why couldn't I just trust you?
Was I doing this for you or myself? Was I really that selfish to leave you all by yourself?

Its not my fault. Pfft. Yeah right. I did it all. Everything. I blew our 12 year marriage for a 12 hour sleeping pill.

Now, leaving you, It felt so redundant. A major wave of deja vu swept over me as I stood there...

Ripping up my transfer
And a photograph of you

Now, that was pretty wrong. Your Adrienne for Christs sakes. My wife of 12 years. My best friend. My lover. My girl

My Minnesota Girl

Then how did it all go wrong?

Flashback 12 months ago

"This is a song I wrote for my beautiful wife, Adrienne"

The auidence screamed with delight.

I laughed and replied, "It's called Minnesota Girl"

I began to play the acoustic guitar as the audience fell into just a few cheers. I looked into the audience, knowing you were out in the crowd somewhere

I walked up to the microphone and closed my eyes. I began to sing:

Sittin' on the hood of a camaro
Walkin' shooting stars across the earth
Counting all the bites from the mosquitoes
There goes my Minnesota girl

Lazy days
Gone without notice
In a daze... with faraway eyes

Driving to a closed spot
Wednesday afternoon
There goes my Minnesota girl

In a daze
Go without notice
Lazy days....with faraway eyes

Countin' from the pieces we have been through
Here comes my Minnesota girl
There goes my Minnesota girl...

End Flashback

Thats all different now, huh Adie?

Crossing God for saken Stuart and the Ave. Going someplace I really don't want to go. A place I would of wanted to go before you did

You're a blur of my dead past and rotting existance
As I stand laughing on the corner of insignificance

I thought I loved you, I really did. I tried my best to keep everything alive, to keep our conversations interesting and to please you in any and every fucking way I could

But the pills...

I promised you I wouldn't. I said I just couldn't, knowing it was wrong.

But it broke your heart when I did

Now, your just a blur. It seems our love never even existed. I don't know if that is good or bad. If I should be happy or sad.

Give me a sign Adie!

Destiny is dead
In the hands of bad luck

Everything I once knew is now gone. It faded as now your bones are. Fadeing away, 6 feet under ground

Rotting away

I knew I loved you. I was almost positive. We were going to last forever.

But I did the stupidest thing to fuck 12 years of marriage up!

I fucked it all up, Adie.

And I'm so sorry

Its about time I say sorry, huh? I should of said it a bit earlier.

Before it might have made some sense
But now it's all fucked up

Its all over. Everything I once knew, loved and cherished is flushed down the drain.

You loved me, Adie.

I just wish I could of loved you back.

Seasons change as well as minds
And I'm a two faced clown
You're mommy's little nightmare
Driving daddy's car around


I feel two-faced. I feel like I love you but in my mind I know I don't

What is true? Your heart or mind?

Thats a stupid question.

Flashback to 1 hour ago

Who knew buying a boquet of flowers was so expensive anymore? Artificial, none the less. Flowers just to show you a little bit of gratitude for our 12 years

Our 12 years of loving marriage

I mean our 12 years of marriage

End flashback

I never want to see Stuart and the Ave ever again. That street sign is tattooed in my mind and it just won't go away.

Just like your face...

I'm beat down and half brain dead
The long lost king of fools

I am a fool, aren't I? I suck. I suck at everything.

I could never make you happy. I could never make you smile after we married. It seemed like marriage made our love disapperar.

Why?

I should of been a romantic to you. You know I have no romantic bone in my body.

You should of married Billy.

I may be dumb
But I'm not stupid enough to stay with you

I think you deserve that line, Adrienne.

Destiny is dead
In the hands of bad luck

Why the fuck am I wiping a God damn tear now? I should of cried when I lost you.

Lost you phyiscally, not literally.

Now standing in front of your grave stone made me remember the day you died.

The day your brother showed me your suicide note. The day I saw your bloody, lifeless body..

Lieing there

Knowing you were officially gone.

Forever.

You died on our 13 year anniversery.

13 is truley unlucky, huh Adie?

Here is a boquet of flowers

Enjoy, my love.

Enjoy the love I could never give you.

Before it might have made some sense
But now it's all fucked up.  

--Last edited by billieaholic_x on 2007-09-17 21:17:59 --

*cries* That was really, really, well written Sarah!! I LOVED IT!! Great fucking job!! It's very different from all the other stuff that I've read!! Great job!!

*gigglelaughsnortchuckelcoughsnicker*

Thanx, its probably my favorite story i've written I tried to make Billie sound bitter/sad/angry/confused all at the same time LOL  

--Last edited by SJhenry_ on 2007-01-27 23:53:49 --

Well you did a great job doing so!! I think it is one of your best.

Thanx

You're very welcome  

--Last edited by in the parking lot on 2007-01-28 00:13:09 --

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*CRIES*

i loved it sarah!!!!!!! lol

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!

THANX!

ur welcome!

gggggahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!! I LOVED IT SARAH!

HAHAHA, THANX

Welcome!